"You are very tired."

"Yes, I am."

I was more than tired. I was mentally exhausted and physically fatigued. My eyes were too tired to focus on the objects around me.

"You know why you are here?"

The light on my face seemed intense. The big, burly types that dragged me in and shoved me into the chair moved behind the light, the glare making them as invisible as the voice addressing me angrily.

"I have a good idea."

"You have not made a post in your blog since March. We pay you good money for content. We want to know why you have not produced any."

"I'm sorry...umm...I didn't really have the time."

"You lie! We have seen your pseudonym on other sites with commentary, while you shirk your contractual obligations."

"Ok..uhm..well...I really didn't feel like blogging for awhile. Some of the nasty letters were scary and I thought I'd take a few months vacation."

"You still lie! We filter your mail and you haven't received any threats for over a year! Who do you think we are...the incompetent vote counters of Lake County, Indiana?"

"You do? You did? Hey that's an invasion of my privacy! Of my readers privacy! I protest!"

"You work for us. You abide by our rules. You public figure - you pay heavy price."

The Japanese Syndicate that backs me had before only interviewed me once by telephone. They seemed quite nice on the phone and their contracts and letterhead was perfumed with lotus flower scent. I never suspected they would treat their contracted talent in such a way. And they are all women. I thought it would be a win-win deal.

"My contract never stated a specific number of blog entries per year or per month."

I think I have them now. It's true. The contract I signed had nothing about quantity only that my contract would be reviewed every 6 months.

"Perhaps you didn't read the fine print! Page four, paragraph three, line 7: monthly generated content must exceed fifteen thousand words!"

"Where? Let me see that! I never read anything like that when I signed!"

She throws the contract in my face. I pick it up and my eyes adjust and try to read the page, paragraph and line in question.

"That whole paragraph is in Japanese! I assumed it repeated the paragraph above!"

"You assumed wrong. Ignorance is not an excuse."

"Ok. I screwed up. How can I get back in your good graces? How about if I produce a steady string of humorous content for a week or two? Every day! Two weeks! Whaddya say? Can't we put all this kidnapping in the middle of the night stuff behind us?"

She stood in front of the light and the light lit up her tight red silk gown. Her slender, golden legs reflected some of the glare accentuating her firm thigh muscles. She was a knock out. I never imagined my syndicate boss was this gorgeous and as she drew closer I could smell the lotus flower perfume which emanated from underneath her gown. She walks up to me and she sees the way I am ogling her. She bends down and looks into my eyes with her big honey colored eyes.

"Oh..you think you can make it up to me, huh. You think you can make up for lost readership, traffic and advertising dollars, huh? You lucky you so handsome, I'm going to give you one chance to make it up to me. You let me down though and you had it - I'll let you imagine your fate."

She strokes her graceful finger underneath my chin and her nail scratches me. I look up and she smiles in a way that betrays total innocence. I feel like I am suddenly in a Terry and the Pirates comic strip and the Dragon Lady has me at her mercy.

"I promise. You'll be happy with the results. You've already given me an idea for my next blog entry."

"Oh I have, have I?"

"Yes. You'll love it...and well if you don't love the readers and advertisers will and that's all that matters, right?"

"Yes. That's all that matters. You perform well I will reward you in ways you can't begin to imagine. You fail us and well..."

"I understand. May I leave now?"

"Yes. You best go to your computer and start typing."


"Oh, I will. I will!"

Fleecing the Sheep

The professional persuaders fleece the sheep every day of their lives. They corral them, feed them, groom them and when the time comes, slaughter them.

The greatest use of persuasion techniques is now used by the media and academia in an effort to manipulate people to believe in what they want them to believe. These two groups understand that any individuals psychological weaknesses are their doorway to controlling his/her life. Controlling people is what this is all about.

The control process is pretty straightforward. It was perfected during the mid-twentieth century and has worked like a charm since that period.

1) Isolate the individual's feelings of guilt and anxiety. Most everyone has some sort of guilt or anxiety. Many have a plethora of them to exploit.

2) Reinforce their guilts and fears & intensify them. This is done by "news" articles, "reports" from professional or government agencies and through television, internet and radio.

At this point the individual is not even aware they have been manipulated. They simply feel they have "watched" the news, read an article or surfed the web. The disquieting influence is long-term and not meant to be built up at once. The environment of fear is created by many little things: Health articles, news reports, opinion pieces and advertising. For children, the anxiety environment is conditioned into them in greater doses with each passing year.

3) Offer the individual some small forms of relief from their anxieties and guilts. This can be as simple as providing "entertainment" (with built in reinforcement for the selfsame anxieties!) Films, television, video games and books all fall in this category of temporary relief.

4) Create dissatisfaction within the masses regarding the status quo. This is primarily the job of academia and the media. They must build up a complete sense of dissatisfaction with the way things currently are. News articles and school curriculum must always emphasize the negative and bring it to the forefront. Change is the key operative word here. Alluding to some future change which will improve the persons life is of paramount importance in preparing them for the next step. Most school children by the time they enter college are perfectly ripe for this philosophy. They are the easiest to manipulate. Breeding dissatisfaction and distrust within their young minds is easy. If the schools and media have done their job properly, the individual will be begging for change and will participate in anything that promises to bring it.

5) Offer the masses a target for change. This is manifested today by "man-made global warming", the removal of a political party from power, the redistribution of wealth from rich to poor, paradigms of existing morality, etc. These are goals that can occupy the person's spare time. They are offered up as changes which will bring the masses relief from their insecurities and guilts.

At this point, you have a large segment of the population under your control - and all effortlessly. You have convinced these individuals to do your bidding and accept the reality you have created for them. They can be made violent, controlled and guided from this point forward into doing anything you want them to do, provided you keep rewarding them with temporary relief from the same insecurities and guilts you have created and grown within them.

The isolated bushman, or jungle native has none of these fears or insecurities. He has no great desire for change and knows a contentedness that is the byproduct of having been isolated from the professional persuaders.

The average westerner on the other hand, is overloaded with them. As a result the average westerner is neurotic more often than not and this neurosis is constantly exploited.

Take a look at your own life. Look at your fears, anxieties and guilts. Look at the changes you seek in the world around you. Look at your satisfaction/dissatisfaction with the world. If you are honest with yourself you will realize that you have been duped. Your mindset is the byproduct of much of these professional persuaders and that, indeed, much of your life has been directed by these controlling influences and proffered relief.

Channeling Ayn Rand

This is a little late for the anniversary of her Birthday, which was February 2nd, but by typical SDAI blogging standards it's hardly late at all. Channeling Rand for 2008 seems like a nice change of pace here.


The faces on the city streets were covered with visible tension. The factories were shutting down, and every week brought news of more plants closing, downsizing or moving overseas. The politicians were promising more for all except those who had something, for whom they only promised more looting. It was an election year so the looters were out in force, jockeying for position by promising to redistribute the rewards of others work. Even those who were in the country illegally could find something to cling to in the words and speeches of the looters. There would be some form of "recognition" and "legal status" for those who arrived illegally and it was just a matter of working out the details. The politicians could pander to citizens and non-citizens equally. Any horde that promised to keep them in power or put them in power was not overlooked.

It was a rainy, overcast day in the desert and the clouds moved swiftly through the skies as if they did not want to stay too long in any place. The streets were damp with drizzle, just enough to lift the dirt and dust into a wet layer over everything.

The town was silent in the drizzle, even the wind was peculiarly quiet. I walked to my car and the silence was disquieting. I couldn't place my finger on what it was that had changed. It was as if the pure desert, untainted by man and time, sensed something was wrong with the world and was trying to block it out. I fumbled with my keys and entered. My mind wandered as I drove down the old highway. The ghost towns that had once sprung up over night when men dreamed big, were now just temporary sun shelter and markers for passing illegals. The Fenshaw silver mine was just a few miles to the north of where the Santa Cruz river breaks off to form Fenshaw walsh. Fenshaw dug and clawed through the rocks for twenty years before he struck a vein of silver that made him wealthy and spawned a small town in his name nearly overnight. That was 90 years ago when most men already thought the region was played out. It lasted nearly fifty years, employing hundreds of miners over several generations, a saloon and a small market. Now the town built by hard work and sweat is just a set of decaying shadows for an endless number of looters. The name Fenshaw is all but forgotten, but his silver lives on in the products made by the companies that bought and used Fenshaw's silver for their goods. Products that, like the desert itself, have lasted the test of time, merely tarnished with age.

I turned on the radio. I wanted something to break the quiet.

The radio announcer had a droning quality, just like the politicians. He announced the foreclosures of another 18,000 homeowners in the state over just the past two months. The politicians wanted to make amends for the greed of the lenders and the borrowers by adding a third wrong.

(That's all for today...and for all of you not up on your Ayn Rand...shame on you! Her works are as meaningful today as they were fifty years ago - perhaps more so.)

The long awaited Q & A!!!

Ok! After years of collecting questions, some esoteric and some banal, I have finally decided to answer some of the easier ones in a concise blog entry to the best of my ability. They will be answered in no particular order and are edited for clarity. If you are ready for a quick Q&A ride...let's go!

"Do you take drugs?"

No. That's one of the few things Tom Cruise and I have in common, a general disdain for the pharmaceutical industry. Technically, everything one consumes is a drug. However, caffeine regularly and aspirin occasionally are consumed by me - nothing with any greater molecular complexity or that requires a prescription.

"What's the deal with your name? What exactly does it mean?"

SDAI has several meanings. It's usage in my handle is relevant to the latter definition. Strategic Development And Integration, and it's organizational activities are featured prominently in several stories on this blog. All members of SDAI are called techs and have numeric affiliations.

"Is SDAI merely a fictionalized version of the SAD? Do, or did, you really work for the CIA Special Activities Directorate?"

The Special Activities Directorate doesn't officially exist. As "Bones" from Star Trek might say, "How can you work for an organization that doesn't exist?"

"Why did you stop writing the political entries in favor of metaphysical stuff? I used to enjoy reading you and now it's like 'HUH?'."

The political stuff, for me, is seasonal. I'll ruminate on a topic for a bit if it seems important enough, but generally I don't place the world's salvation in the hands of either politicians, political parties or religionists and their many and varied religions. The metaphysical stuff has greater import, both to me and my readers. Political views are a dime a dozen. Energy principles as they apply to human evolution are quite a bit scarcer - and of more value. I try and give readers the best value for their time spent.

"Did you really go on a drive with President Bush on his ranch? How is he in real life? Is he smarter than the critics say he is?"

That's still classified. I still do like GWB, warts and all.

"What's the deal with your Japanese syndicate? Are you paid for this blog? If you are being paid, why is it so teribly long between entries?"

To reinterpret what Joan of Arc said to her inquisitors about her state of Grace, "If I am being paid, it's not enough. And if I'm not being paid, I certainly should be."

"How do you know all this past life, energy stuff? Really? Where did you learn it?"

That's a fair question and deserves an honest answer. I've got pretty darn good connections. And I don't even need to keep them all in my Blackberry. My mind is linked to many others, on and off this world, and they can share knowledge and wisdom via this blog. Many of them are much wiser than me. I'm just beginning my quest into infinity - as we all are.

"Does Shayla really exist? Can I meet her?"

Yes, she exists. But you can only read about her exploits on this blog.

"When will you add your picture to your profile?"

Privacy and anonymity have certain value when one discusses very controversial matter freely. That probably won't ever change.

"When will you do more Sci-fi cover interpretations? I miss those!"

2008...resolution...more covers!

"What happened to GOP Girl?"

Bush won the 2004 election. GOP girl went into permanent retirement.

"Who are you rooting for in the 2008 Presidential election?"

That's a topic for an upcoming blog entry...

"You never said why you were driving the TESLA/STEINMETZ SUV. I awaited a follow up blog entry and you just blew it off?"

My bad. 2008...resolution...follow up on TESLA SUV.

"Do you really have an SUV based upon the Tesla technology? Can you modify my Yukon? Where can I buy one? I'm a serious buyer."

The Steinmetz SUV is very unlikely to be made available for purchase...but I DO intend to share some of the technologies utilized...here on this blog in 2008. It's time we get the long promised "future" rolling.

"In your stories, you describe SHAMBALLA and VALHALLA as secret bases in the US. Is there some significance to the "ALLA" connection?"

No. The bases, and some officials names, merely have mythological nomenclature attached to them for classified identification purposes.

"Why don't you post more photographs of the desert? I liked the few you have shown and you should show some more."

Well thanks. I'll try to add more photos of the desert, when appropriate.

"You used to have links to other blogs and places on the web? Then one day they just disappeared. What happened?"

I was receiving some feedback that people were judging my blog based upon whom I linked too. Instead of actually reading content, some surfers just take a quick look at your links and judge your content based upon who you have linked to. This seemed undesirable and so I pulled the links.

"Do you publish books under another name? I've read books by ------ and they read a lot like your blog stories do."

Maybe. ;-)

That's all for today...

A NEW WORLD

A new year...a new world. This will be a spectacular year for many folks and especially all of my readers who will be given the secrets of life and the universe - and in plain sight, without any secret handshakes, old document reading or meditation on rice mats required.

At the close of 2007 we covered defense from the dark arts and a bit about mastership of light. We will continue on in these pursuits interrupted by the odd material focus, political pathos & satiric interjections.

The image above, was shot this very day. An unusual view of the world, for an unusual blog in which things are often revealed in a new light. The image above is merely a negative image of what we are more familiarly accustomed to seeing:



Our own position and senses determine our views. To become ever more infinite, one must learn to see in ever broader perspectives and not through the same vantage point.

I wish all my readers the very best as we begin this new year and I promise to keep lifting curtains and offering up new perspectives for your consideration and exposure.

SDAI-Tech1

Defense Against the Dark Arts - Part 2

Now that we have covered just what darkness is and how to counter darkness with light - based upon the polarity bias of your thoughts. We will be able to go into practical usage and the methods by which you can obtain this Mastership of Light.

My purpose here is two-fold. My bosses are Masters of Light. They taught me everything I know. I, likewise, have responsibility to others to share this knowledge and also to put it to use in ironing out my own very real imbalances. The trips to "The Room" are quite real as is all that is conveyed in these dissertations. I have certain responsibilities and part of my job is to counter darkness here on Earth. To do this I need to awaken those of you, who are at that point in your evolutionary development where the stuff I relate here - makes sense. This is because this is really not new to you. It may be new in this life, but between lives you have already attended certain classes and learned most, if not all, of that which I relate. Reading it here only repolarizes this knowledge in your physical consciousness. The knowledge already resides in your quantized field of energy which comprises your "soul" and which portions function in higher spectra without the need of a physical body at all to think, learn and experience.

I share this at Christmas time to help offset some of the millennia-old misconcepts and paganism which chain man to religious effigies and escape mechanisms.

So now that that is cleared up, we can continue into the practical usage of this knowledge and how to take a hands on effort in your immortal personal evolution.

Every day of your life you encounter various individuals, symbols and ideosophies. Your relationships at home, with your family and in school or at work all exist, in reality, as a complex sea of energy waveform relationships. These waves manifest with frequency, shape, subharmonic structures, etc. Relationships, thoughts and feelings are all scientific relationships. This sounds odd and perhaps at first even somewhat distasteful. Feelings and emotions shouldn't be in the realm of science, or at least that is what we often feel when we first encounter such a statement. But it is true, nevertheless. Good/evil, happiness/unhappiness, interest/disinterest, like/dislike, love/hate and all the rest which we FEEL are all governed by these waveforms we have accumulated and their scientific reaction to new experiences, people and things. In fact, we are pulled and our placement at any given time is the byproduct of these scientific reactions.

Where you are today, at this very moment, is not an accident. It is not fate. It is not random. It is the byproduct of an infinite number of oscillatory movements of energy which govern the way you use your body, think and react.

Realizing this will be one of the most important things you can ever learn.

Because now you will be able to better control your destiny, experiences and direction in life. By changing YOU, you change the way the rest of the universe interfaces with you. You cannot change the universe, only yourself. The planet does not move when you want to get out of bed, you must extend the thought.

Yes - a simple thought is what gets you out of bed. Your body is only a lowly slave to your thoughts. Each thought has immense power. Each thought is not temporal - but it is eternal. It oscillates with your field and regenerates its own little loop of energy. It creates a wavetrain. These thoughts may be imbalanced. A hate thought for example is very imbalanced. All your hates are oscillating in little wavetrain loops on your quantized field. Every time you reinforce this hate or bias this loop gets a little more powerful and has more energy imparted unto it.

You cannot change the thoughts you have already had. You can only balance them with new thoughts.

A wavetrain grown all out of proportion to the rest will dominate your life. If you collect stamps, and think of stamps all the time, how much you love them, enjoy looking at them and seeking out new additions for your collection, all these thoughts will start to spill over and influence all your other stored wavetrains. Soon you will view almost everything in regards to stamps, your collection, etcetera. Your time online may gravitate to stamp sites, etcetera. Everyone has these dominating wavetrains to some degree, even though 99.999% do not understand them or realize how they dominate their thinking processes.

This is how addictions are formed. It can be music, sex, food, drugs, smokes, gambling, online gaming or an infinite number of other things. Anything which loses balance and starts to dominate your consciousness actually becomes evil. Here we see that imbalanced positive biases can also be destructive. We learn that BOTH strong negative biases and positive biases need to be addressed and balanced - not merely the negative ones.

This is important too. The Dark forces use peoples' "loves" just as effectively as they use their "hates". They seek imbalance.

Why?

Good question.

Because an imbalanced positive wave means it is accompanied by an imbalanced negative waveform.

If you LOVE online gaming you will HATE being taken away from a game or interrupted. If you LOVE food, you will HATE it when food is denied you. If you LOVE one actor, you are likely to denigrate others. You see how it works? Positive imbalances are always accompanied by a number of negative imbalances. It's all a package deal - no thought lives in a vacuum.

So now you see it gets much more complex. Not only do we need to watch out for our hates, we need to watch out for our loves as well, because these will often conceal and form other hates. More properly, we need to always try to minimize imbalance.

So we have all these wavetrains looping around, regenerating themselves. They remanifest into our lives and each create certain cycles, which will recur from birth to death and, yes, from life to life.

As a Master of Light, you will learn to address all that you are and seek to balance all that is within you. You will iron out negative imbalances and positive ones as well - always seek to leave a slight positive bias. This positive bias will keep you progressing for all eternity. One can never achieve total balance. If we could, we would cease to exist because we would have no drive whatsoever. All our drive and initiative, desires, etc are spurred by our biases. So we need a certain amount of bias in our lives.

That's all for today...and more than enough to contemplate and review. The next lesson will be another curtain lifter...so don't miss it!

Defense Against the Dark Arts

Everyone who reads this particular blog entry will have need of it. So stop for a second and take note. This is not an accident, chance or random internet surfing that brought you to this page. What you read over the next few minutes will be of great use to you now and in your future.

In this entry, I am going to discuss the defense against the dark arts. Yes, the Harry Potter franchise has popularized this particular phrase and yet real life is much stranger than fiction, and what you will learn here today will be infinitely more valuable to you than the fictional wand incantations taught to aspiring wizards.

Light and dark are two sides of the same coin. Because we live in an infinite universe of energy which expresses with polarity - all events, all things, all people and each thought you take now expresses with a positive/negative relationship to all other things - both within you and outside of yourself. To defend yourself against the dark forces you must first understand exactly what darkness is. Darkness is made of the same stuff of Light - energy. A dark force has polarized negative experiences and the wave forms which comprise them are biased towards the negative polarity.

Once again: Darkness is energy polarized to a negative pole when juxtaposed against similar positively biased waves.

The universe, as a result, is in perfect balance at all times. From any position you will ever find yourself, now or in any future life, there will lie energy of infinite sums both positively and negatively biased to all that you are.

All that you are is a sum of energy. Yes you are ENERGY. All energy cannot be destroyed or created, it merely changes form.

You are evolving.

Every moment, each thought, each experience changes what you are. It changes the wave forms which comprise you. If you lose your wallet or purse, that is biased as negative. To you it represents a form of evil, darkness, something bad or merely unfortunate. This is the illusion we are going to shatter today.

Evil exists in your life only when you permit it to.

Any experience, happening event, or person can NEVER by themselves be evil, dark or negative. They need a CONTRASTING form of energy to RELATE to.

Darkness is not darkness, until something more light arrives on the scene. Hell worlds, demon playgrounds do not seem negative to those who are oscillating at this level and comprised of energy. They are completely ignorant of their own darkness. This is a very important point to remember.

All evil is generally ignorant of their evil. Every act which betrays the ignorance which spawned it can be considered evil. The bully at school, the person who embraces hatred, the violent and destructive, generally never are intelligent enough to see their actions in perspective. They find their actions necessary, and likely even good, while others find them evil. Yes, all the demons, dark forces and devils of the lower spectra think they are justified in their actions. They do not see themselves as someone more evolved does.

On this world, and at this time, you will likely never encounter true evil and will instead encounter manifestations of human ignorance, fear and insecurity. True evil requires the development of a certain level of consciousness that then falls or descends. Fallen angels are very real. A man with a club can beat someone, but a man with an atom bomb can take out millions of people.

Dark forces and the dark arts are practiced by such fallen souls. They had at one time developed to a certain level in their personal evolution from life to life and from spectra to spectra and then they lost their equilibrium and their fundamental positive bias. At this point everything they learned about energy, they use for destructive, selfish ends. And this can be quite considerable.

All the horror books, films, scary stuff, violent video games, etcetera are the manifestations of these dark forces efforts. This world is like an enormous kindergarten classroom and the dark forces are trying to recruit new members among the unsuspecting children.

To defend yourself against such dark arts, you must realize that the dark forces goal is to turn the sum of your wave forms into negatively biased waves. They want you to be exposed to violence, death, fear, hate, pain, jealousy, greed, etc. The mass media today act as tools of these dark ones. Their tentacles create such shows as Harry Potter, Pirates of the Caribbean and other negatively inspired tools used to create darkness in the minds of the masses.

So to defend yourself against darkness you must use Light. You, who read this here today will become Masters of Light. You will become at one with the infinite and will never be able to be harmed by darkness. Light will become your shield and your sword. You will need no incantations or wands. You will direct and control this Light with your mind. You will become a luminous orb of light, blinding all darkness and when they contact you their negatively biased waveforms will be balanced.

This is very important. Once you realize that darkness no longer can harm you and, in fact, only dark forces fear, then you will never be afraid again. You will be able to stand up to all things less positive and with your positive state of mind will master and neutralize the negative that comes into contact with you.

This will not be an easy task. Because everything that you are presently comprised of will have varying degrees of imbalanced waves. All your dislikes, fears, hates, jealousies and resentments will need to be balanced. Because these will be the doorways by which the dark forces will try and take you down.

Once you pursue this path of light - be warned - the dark forces will notice you. Like moths to the flame, those who walk in halos of light are hard to miss. So you will be tested, and mastery, if you so desire such, will be achieved only after thousands of years and many lifetimes of this due diligence in maintaining a positive consciousness and realigning all that you are towards a positive polarity.

That's all for today's lesson. Most folks could re-read this particular blog entry a thousand times and they would still get benefit and realize new things after the 1001st re-reading.

The Lost Generation

Texting on the fly
Give the Wii one more try
My Blackberry is boss
Give my notebook a toss

EMF all around me
Is it real cause I don't see
Plugged into my box
I may need some detox

Gaming hours and hours
Gotta earn some more powers
I have an avatar
Its unique - like my car

I might need a shower
But from that I do cower
Can't get away
Right here I will stay

Everything's cool
Don't call me a fool
I'm the next generation
Pride of the nation

I can quit anytime
I don't need your bad rhyme
Now leave me alone
Got another text on my phone